I'm very thankful I have a job, but...

I would really love to go back to school.

The fact that I still haven't earned my degree has made me feel so incomplete. 

One day, I plan to have my own business.
I think about    it a lot.
I think about    how I would run it.
I think about    what I would do.
I think about    the business opportunities.
I think about    how it would change people's lives.

Yes, I think about it a lot.

But recently my boss has been depending on me more than ever. My workload has dramatically increased. I tell myself I'm a big girl I can handle it, but sometimes I don't believe it. I'm very greatful for this opportunity, as it's helping me understand the basics of operating a business. The only thing I dislike are the office hours. I feel like I'm here 24/7. Especially on Saturday's when the majority of my peers, and family members, are at home, enjoying their day off.

I have a vision of where I want to go and who I want to be. But maybe I'm already there I just don't see it.

It's incredible how the lack of a piece of paper can make you feel so incomplete.... 

To be continue....

I was crying like a little baby....

On Sunday I spend the whole day watching TV! I know! I know! How lazy of me. I honestly didn't feel like doing much but I did watched the History Channel most of the time so I was being semi-productive by learning something, right?? Well anyways I was flipping through the channels and right at 4PM I randomly flipped to MSNBC. They were playing this documentary titled, "Dear Zachary." And this is where my blog begins.

From Wikipedia:

"Kuenne's close friend Andrew Bagby was murdered by Shirley Jane Turner after Bagby ended their tumultuous relationship. Shortly after she was arrested, she announced she was pregnant with Bagby's child, a boy she named Zachary. Kuenne decided to interview numerous relatives, friends, and associates of Andrew Bagby and incorporate their loving remembrances into a film that would serve as a cinematic scrapbook for the son who never knew him."

I was crying by the end of this film, like seriously bawling because of the unexpected turn of events. I felt emotionally heart broken, angry, frustrated, shocked, sad, horrified, so damn pissed!!! I was so touched by Andrew Bagby's parents who fought so hard to maintain custody of little Zachary. This was such a touching documentary. By far one of the best I've ever seen.

I'm so moved by Andrew Bagby's parents courage to tell their story of grief and struggle but also the joy of the birth of Zachary. They are truly angels! Everything you could expect from a mother, father, and grandparents. I was so angry as to why this could of happened to such amazing people. My heart was literary hurting for them and poor little Zachary.

If you get a chance to watch this film please do so, you won't regret it!!!!

You can also go to their Facebook and like, "Dear Zachary".

Plain Jane...

 I feel like a total Plain Jane. My hair looks so simple and flat, I wanna do something crazy to it! I was bored at work so I decided to play with some looks. I seriously think I can pull the Lady GaGa hair don't you think? Mmmmm maybe who knows this weekend I might just walk into a salon and do something drastic to it!

The Last Lecture

Last Friday after having dinner with some friends, me and Jarrah headed out the Half-Price Book Store. I bought Randy Pausch's "The Last Lecture." I've been reading it none stop! I had already seen his lecture on YouTube but I had always wanted to read the book as well. So far I'm inspired by the strength and faith Randy kept during the last months of his life. He was well aware his days were counted and yet lived his life to the fullest. None of us really know when our time will be up but Randy Pausch has taught me to make the best out of each and every day.

Who was Randy Pausch?

Randy Pausch was a professor of Computer Science and Human Computer Interaction at Carnegie Mellon University. He was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer on September 2006, at the age of 46. He gave a speech at Carnegie Mellon University on September 18, 2007 titled,"Really Achieving Your Childhood Dreams" or best known as "The Last Lecture." His speech went viral on YouTube. He talked about his childhood dreams, lessons he learned, and from time to time gave advice. He also joked around and made people laugh. 

Here are some power point slides from his speech, my favorite being "the brick wall," lesson. On his book, he talks about how his wife was his biggest "brick wall," lol. 

Randy Pausch passed away on July 25th 2008, 3 months after the publication of the book, "The Last Lecture." I recommend everybody to grab a copy if you can :)