I opened up about a year ago in a post titled, 'Hardest Thing You've Ever Experienced' (BTW I need finish to answering all 28 questions asap). I want to share a couple of pictures of times one would assume I was happy. But deep down I felt very unwanted, empty and alone.
This was my 21st birthday. Nobody knew at the time that the reason I was acting shy about my birthday was because I dead broke. My boyfriend at the time offered to buy my meal for my birthday.
I took part in various organizations, including playing a huge role in starting one. Despite sharing many laughs, deep inside I felt so alone. I was struggling in my classes and had no desire to get out of bed most days. Of course, I always made the best to share how fine I seemed to be.
I was one of the lucky students selected to visit my high school with the president of the university, President Powers. The purpose of our visit was to motivate students to go to college. I wondered how the heck I got selected, because clearly they didn't check my GPA. I had no business encouraging other kids to attend college, when I myself didn't even want to be there.